Trying Times cont...

For a while i have been asking God why? Why all my age mates are 'happily' married or in serious relationships yet for me every time i try one it never lasts a year.And the toll it leaves on my heart is just 'too much.' Being someone who works so hard to make it work, i often end up bruised all over and begging God for another chance. And so here i find myself again facing the same challenges after dating MM for a while and feeling weak after throwing in all i could to keep it going and now having nothing more to do. Then after fasting and praying (and still in the process) i find God's reasurance that He has a good plan for me the only solace i have. I also remember a quote that once came to me that "at the point where we stop trying hard, God takes over when we tell Hi we can't and all the burden is lifted. My heart is slowly turning to normal...