Monday, September 15, 2014
For a while i have been asking God why? Why all my age mates are 'happily' married or in serious relationships yet for me every time i try one it never lasts a year.And the toll it leaves on my heart is just 'too much.' Being someone who works so hard to make it work, i often end up bruised all over and begging God for another chance. And so here i find myself again facing the same challenges after dating MM for a while and feeling weak after throwing in all i could to keep it going and now having nothing more to do. Then after fasting and praying (and still in the process) i find God's reasurance that He has a good plan for me the only solace i have. I also remember a quote that once came to me that "at the point where we stop trying hard, God takes over when we tell Hi we can't and all the burden is lifted. My heart is slowly turning to normal...
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
In a series of weeks, i have gone through trying moments; from having my car spoil in the middle of nowhere near Mahi Mahiu and having to wait for my God sent mechanic from miles away in Nairobi, to being arrested charged and imprisoned for 3 months only to be bailed out by my Loving sis Chela after spending a weekend in jail to having my job at stake not knowing what shall happen. Yet in all these, i am humbled to know that my faith is being tested and strengthened and with each passing moment i am convicted by Ellen G White's words of wisdom in 'Help in Daily Living' that in as much as possibl, we shouldn't focus on the tribulations and trials so much as to be passed by God's love and mercy availed to us daily. And so i smile daily knowing that His grace and love far much supercede any trials and temptaion and at the end of the day, we know that God only allows such things to happen to His loved ones in order to strengthen them spiritually.